Lent, Day 4.

10:45: I wake up and shower to go to the group solicit at the outlet mall for the golf tournament Phi Alpha is hosting in March. It's raising money for breast cancer, I have boobs, I agree to help. I'm still high.


11:30: Kim and I meet everyone in the breezeway at school. 17 of us signed up. Seven of us were there. I am a trooper.


12:15: We arrive at the outlets. This shit is supposed to last from 12-1, and we're already 25% done. Nice.


12:30: So far, Kim and I have gone to Nike, Factory Brand Shoes, some luggage story and Eddie Bauer. Clearly they're all corporate chains and no one can donate shit. Why are we here again? My high is wearing off.


1:15: Kim is sick, and miserable, and near tears, so Kaitlyn (the VP of Phi Alpha, and head of the Baby family) lets us go.


1:45: I text Rose to see if she'd like to go to the tennis match (Harry is on the tennis team, and it's a beautiful day). She is already there, I walk over.


1:50: Jim is leaving the tennis courts right as I approach the gates. I'm sure he heard I was on my way and wanted nothing to do with that situation.


2:10: Rose and Max are still high and need a nap, so they leave me at the courts.


2:20: I feel uncomfortable by myself, so I leave as well.


2:30: Ally and Paige are both at work, and I have absolutely nothing to do, so of course I end up wallowing in self-pity and crying over Jim. It's not that I miss him as a boyfriend, I just miss him in general. Going from someone being your best friend and boyfriend to non-existant is pretty hard. I am alone and bored and pitying myself. I text Paige and tell her she must come home from work immediately because I am a depressed idiot.


2:40: My mom calls to talk and can immediately tell I'm upset. She says the magic words: "Sara, are you alright?" and the waterworks ensue. Damn it mothers and their telepathic powers.


3:00: Mom has talked me down and I sit down in front of the television to distract myself.


5:30: Rose wakes up from her cannabis coma and asks what I'm up to. I suggest we go to Scarlett O'Hara's and get french fries.


7:45: We ended up staying there a really long time, talking about every boy that we've ever been interested in and has ever done us wrong. For a 17 year old, she's pretty fucking smart and mature. I decide I will really miss her when she goes back to Rochester.


8:00: I hang out with Rose while she gets ready for the night. It's still Max's birthday and he's decided to replace all of the lightbulbs in his house with black lights and blare house music through his sound system. Cool idea; bring the club to us.


11:00: People arrive at Max's. Max is nowhere to be found. We call him and he claims to be on a beer run.


11:59: Max is still on said beer run, everyone else has left and gone to a party on 13th street. Not my scene.


12:15: The Spaniards are still on Max's front porch, and AP Spanish did some good, so I listen and join in when I can. They eventually decide to also go to 13th, when James comes to the rescue and invites me over to Gavin's. Gavin is a year older and equally (if not more so) nerdy than myself. I've known him longer than I've gone to this school, thanks to Facebook, and he's a really great kid.


2:05: I am freezing and using the pizza Gavin and his roommate, Nick, ordered to keep me warm. We are watching Family Guy reruns. I like my company, but I want to go home but don't want to walk.


3:00: I am finally home and snug in my bed. Day four - survived!